Realizations

There are days when I find myself questioning my existence. I try to find my purpose yet sometimes I feel that it's nowhere to be found. However, in those few moments, God has never failed to embrace me and let me know that He is holding me closely and that there's a purpose why I am living.


Yesterday, I had to report to work to submit and post some charts. For some reason, I just knew that I had to do those and that was it. I planned to attend my cousin's daughter's baptism and that was it. When I got home, exhaustion attacked and I got tempted to just lie down and get a nap. What I thought was simply a nap ended up to be a full 3 hour sleep. 


My best friend, Erwin, called up and said that he was picking me up. Since I had nothing to do. I agreed to do so. So at around 8pm, he arrived here and fetched me. As usual, all he had were but tentative plans. We found ourselves at MOA, eating at this Thai resto, and bonding.


It got me thinking. What would he do if he didn't have me as his best friend? Succumb to his stress and sleep it away hoping that all of his worries would be gone? Yesterday, I know that I was able to minister to him. I know that I was able to make him feel better and I was able to encourage him. 


The whole experience has taught me never to question God of my purpose again. There are things which I often take for granted. What I didn't realize is that God is at work in my life. Though I don't see it. Though I have never realized it, I exist because God's plan will be actualized through me.


I praise God for all that He has done. He has opened my eyes to things and I'm grateful for His ways. Though I may never completely understand what's going to happen to me next or what's in store for me, it really pays to completely trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding.